Don't...

Things happen for a reason. Dont assume everything that happens to me is your fault. I have a life to lead, decisions to make and a diploma to achieve. So don't keep watching me and my every move because i dont stick to schedules. I do crazy stuff just to not follow a daily routine. I do things spontaneously just out of boredom. I cant live with people always asking "why did you do that?" because i dont even know! ! ! I just did it so get over it. Dont go around asking people about their lives when you already got your own to fulfill.
Don't worry about what others might think. Don't worry about what goes on in someone else's life. Don't have so low self-esteem coz it brings others down with you. Dont be sad about what happened today because there's still tomorrow. Don't beg for one thing when you have so many other choices to choose from. Don't get obsessed over someone when there are so many other people around you. Don't give up on your life because someone out there wishes to have what you have. Don't be afraid to reject something you dont want. Don't be afraid to get a new boyfriend eventhough you have feelings for your ex because he might be able to make you forget about your past. Dont be so negative about anything because things can always get better ...

The distance...

I'm in love with you... not the distance. I was afraid before. That the distance might draw us apart. That someone you see everyday might make you happier than just talking with me through the phone. I was afraid of what I didnt know. I was afraid of being replaced. . .

Now that we're two halves of a whole, I'm fine. Better in fact. I miss you more everyday. I miss you while I'm talking to you. And the distance makes everything worse but my feelings for you grow at the same time. I'm happy. And I hope you're happy too. I dont care how far you are because my heart is always with you. We're gonna make it and i'm screwing the distance for the one who has my heart <3

Distractions...and you're one of them...

The perfect distraction = YOU. I would stop my work for you. I would put my pen down just to read your text with my right hand (im right-handed). I'll continue my work while deciding what to reply and sometimes you slip my mind. Then I stop writing because you crossed my mind and I start smiling. Then I remember your last unreplied text and get straight to it.

I'm becoming a maniac, insomniac just thinking about how you're doing. You're the guy of my dreams. Loving you could be a crime because you take my breath away. Its classic how we met. On a school trip to Malacca. That was when I noticed you from the crowd. I still remember your bright coloured shorts you wore to the water park. The people who know us would turn their heads to look at us together. Maybe I'm just lovedrunk. Cant seem to stop you from running through my mind. It will never stop now that you're mine. You got that something girls read in fairytales. This is it. This is our time. We're never gonna get any younger than this. I'm glad my prince charming is you because you're worth everything most guys are not. You're worth my heart and soul. You're worth irreplaceable time. You're worth every risk that I would take. You will always be my first choice.

I'm so so sorry I'm not the talker you would prefer me to be. Im not the type to talk it about how i really feel properly even though you can say a million words and i'll still be JUST listening. I dont know how to comfort you through the phone when all I want to do is hug you tight and SHOW you I'm there for you. I could listen to you a whole day and just know what i'm gonna write in reply. You are amazing with words and you're my weakness that I would never want to get strong from. I cant tell you what you wanna hear. Even when you ask me to say something, nothing crosses my mind except a smile and "I love this guy and he's mine." I take out bits and pieces from the draft in my head and tell you some of it. I would open my heart if I could and all you would see is you. I think about you even in the darkest hour of the night.

I love you for who you are. Its not because you're taller than me. Or not fat. Or your favourite colour is blue. I dont mind not eating cake with you for dessert when we go out. We could share a drink. I dont mind If you can't have half of my cookie. I'll give you my whole heart instead. I dont care which side of the bed you want to sleep on, I'll turn to you (future reference) I dont care if you cant lick the chocolate of my lips, I'd eat sugus instead. The things I'd do for you is all out of love. Dont hate yourself because I love you just the way you are. Wouldnt love you any other way. I'm not looking for perfection because it doesnt exist but you do and I found you. My love, My heart, My home.... You're everything...